"You sometimes feel no need for sleep. It's like you are suffering from Insomnia. You feel like you're on the top of the world. You feel down, perhaps suicidal at times, but then extremely happy at other times to the point that people worry. Sometimes your self-esteem is high and others you feel worthless. It's like you are hanging between feeling meaningful and meaning worthless with no purpose at all." WhenIDieYouWillLaugh. There is no help to be had here.